Monday, 7 March 2011
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okay i changed some stuff on the template..
and the old old old old code for twitter is screwing up..
since i'm not good at anything IT (i'm serious here), it'd take me forever to fix it..
so if you really want to see my twits, go and read it on twitter. alright? :)
<---- btw the link is there.... if you can't see it.
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actually i wanted to catch a little rest now..
and wake up later to watch anime till like 5 in the morning..
and i remembered.................
i'm going to my cousin's place tomorrow in the morning. oh well. maybe tomorrow then.
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flirting is like tightrope dancing. where every move is carefully calculated. where every obvious hint is purposefully ignored. where a single carelessness would lead to a fall..
would you like to fall?
...just some food for thought.
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i really don't know why am i back to blogging. but oh well. maybe i'm just getting too free. x)
some quotes i got from this guy that i don't know but follow on twitter 'cos he's just so damn good.
here goes..
-Sometimes, there are things you just want to do over and over again to make them right. But, sometimes you really only ever get one chance
-Never underestimate the pain of a person, because in all honesty, everyone is struggling. Some people just hide it better than others
-What people fail to understand is, even the people who act strong needs someone to lean on from time to time
-You can tell a lot about a person's character by how they treat people they don’t have to treat well
Friday, 4 March 2011
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i just feel so out of sorts today..
suddenly i feel that i'm not that sure of myself anymore.
Thursday, 3 March 2011
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been
ages since i last blogged haha.
i have this guy buddy of seven years whom i had been very close to.. unfortunately his
psychotic jealous gf had done so many extreme things that he chose to keep his distance from me. i really missed those days when we laughed together, played together, and loved chocolates together. but that's history.
recently, i met another guy whom i clicked with very well. ;) he reminds me of my buddy. the same fuzzy buddy-buddy feeling that's so familiar, yet so totally different. i find myself smiling, laughing.. the same way i used to last time.
today i realised that despite how close we were, we were only friends. only you and i, and people who knew both of us, could understand that. that's why i had told you very bluntly that your gf is seriously not worth your time. however, the choice was yours. so i had to respect it. it's okay. i'm doing fine, if not better.. whereas for you.. i can't say anything, but i'll be there when you need me. i promise. even though you broke your promise to me, it's okay. i know why and i know you had no choice.
without your shoulder to cry on when i need to, things are definitely different. you had this unique way of consoling me.. even if the sky were to fall down, i'm sure you would have found a way to prop it up, wouldn't you? but it's okay, i'm coping well. i don't need a shoulder to cry on anymore now. i'd grow up, i'd grow stronger.. i'm a big girl now, buddy.
i know you'd still worry, despite not talking much. but it's okay. mummy's looking over me from the heavens. i'll be alright. mummy will keep me safe. wouldn't you, mummy?
you know, buddy.. those years ago when i was still a little girl i knew that i liked you more than just friends. i was a little girl.. ruled more by my heart, lesser by my head. but as i grew up, and knew you better, i know that if given the chance, one day i would fall for you. but i matured more. and realised that even though the feeling we had for each other was mutual, there was no chance. we were too similar, and too different. we can never be together. that's why we are the best of friends, weren't we? the bond we shared.. we both know it will always be there despite everything we do to get rid of it.. there are days when i really feel like slapping you, the way you always wanted me to. but i couldn't. it's just like how you couldn't bear to hit me. x)
buddy, today i'm letting you know. i found another friend like you.. he's really nice, really awesome. he's normal. he's a miracle. he's different from you, yet so alike. but he'd never be a replacement for you.. i'm waiting for my friend to come back to me.. to spend time together like we had always been.