Sunday, 31 January 2010
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i decided i shall not care about my karma in plurk. it's emotional blackmail, make me plurk nonsense everyday. -.-
exams are drawing really near. i can smell them. wahaha. okay la, i like exams. cos after exams~ its TEH HOLIDAYS :D hee heeeee
pigpig's going on field camp again! :( not fairrrr.
Monday, 25 January 2010
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monday blues again.
darling called this morning to wake me up. apparently, i was in the i-don't-care-there's-school-or-what-i-just-wanna-sleep mood.
feeling a little miffed already in the morning. darling has to go field camp this week, yet again. it's the 4th consecutive week he has field camp. which sucks.
:(
Thursday, 21 January 2010
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it's a miracle that i'm feeling lucid today. and i stubbed my toe when the bus suddenly decided to lurch forward. damn inertia.
crap happens. people who dare to dare others, yet don't dare to face consequences. total loser.
had a really good talk with mal last night. yup, i did say i'll think it over. i will. thanks for caring, seriously.
Monday, 18 January 2010
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shit happens. shit really happens.
went to school early today to realise there isn't presentation. in fact, it was moved to next week. damn.
went home. rested for a while. and now i'm on the way back to school.
today really sucks ttm. everything's wrong. my lappy's freezing as and when it's happy. my class reps aren't giving out the lecture and tutorial notes, they aren't informing us of class schedule changes, i don't have money to pay for my g 8 exams.
and everything continues to go wrong.
sigh.
Friday, 1 January 2010
♥ new year, old fears
it's new year's, yet again.
year after year, this day never fails to come. and year after year, i never fail to fear.
fearing that people close to me would turn and walk away, fearing that people that i care for would hurt, fearing that one day i would wake up and realised that my own world had betrayed me.
a little irrational, i know. but things like that had happened enough times for me to be wary.
two days to remind me of the two years i missed. and i'm just barely starting, hoping that things would return to what they were like before. even that itself is wishful thinking. i had missed out the two years where you two had grown up the most, how can i hope that things would be like before? in the past it used to be either two of us, whispering pointing and laughing. now, it's only you two. saddening, somehow.
with much hope, this year will be better.