something i did while half-listening in my elective. nice eh? :pin lecture now, bacterias and etc. (archaea, methanogens, halophiles, thermophiles... peptidoglycan blah blah.)
miss those times in cchms xP haha.
having a break halfway through the inorg chem lecture now. it's effing boring - all the sec 3 chem stuff. feeling emo already. haha xP
i'm like freezing lah. so cold in the theatre, so hot outside. hate the weather, totally. :(
somehow, i don't know if the bgm is coming out at all. bugger that. anyway, while tinkering, i finally linked qi.
anyway if anyone wants to hear or do whatever to my bgm - here's the link.
it's two songs in one mp3 file. (: i like it quite a lot. i heard some tomboyish girl play it in the library's cafe a few times already. although the mp3 version sounds much much much smoother. have to admire her courage as a rookie to play in the cafe though.
talking about the cafe, i heard someone playing the g8 exam list A piece. it's one of the pieces in the purple book like a couple of years ago. haha xP
n.b. before i'm flame-grilled for copying, plagiarising, etc., i would like to thank qi for the song you bluetooth-ed to me during dinner. although i heard it plenty of times already, it's really thanks to you i know the song name (:
whoopee.
ok i think my previous posts made it seemed like some jap psycho hacked my blog account. no. i posted them, so i’m the psycho. haha!
anyway i was thinking back – i realised i had been blogging since. wow. really long, like 5 or 6 years already.
and what had amounted from all those blogging? nothing much, really. ok so now i feel as though i wasted so much time for nothing. and what am i doing now? blogging. how ironic.
jap class just now. cant really believe that i had spent a year plus with pres and nakai sensei already. (no actually, i had spent like 7 years with pres. hee :D) nakai sensei has this mickey mouse pen which caught my eye some couple of weeks ago. it’s cute, okay. anyway i saw him jabbing the nib of the pen into the paper a few times like, last last lesson or so. so i think one of the colours had run out. (it’s those 4-coloured pen)
today marks the first monthsary at nyp. if anyone EVER cares. i wonder how chris felt years ago when he finished his first month at nyp. bet he couldn’t care – he seemed so icantbebotheredokay. talking about him, i remember that day when he told me there’s a road near the escalator at the atrium. and i insisted that there wasn’t (hey, i DIDN’T see it, okay). bet i made a goddamned fool of myself. haha. dang, who am i to quarrel about that to an ex-nyp student. dumb, okay. DUMB.
school – i think i’m starting to like physical chem. everytime they go through some physics concept that we learnt in sec school, i could imagine mr. gan reiterating in the past. gosh, thanks so much for nagging, mr. gan. i can’t believe i still remember all those years after you stopped nagging. (: i guess physical chem is way more manageable than physics. it seemed easier to understand and apply than before. or maybe because my brain had some sort of upgrade that i’m not aware of. ya, right!’
mum’s being a pain again. i dunno, but somehow we simply can’t see eye to eye. i lent her one of my spare phones – it was brand-new, mind you. and it’s in a pretty tattered condition now. xin tong leh. and i doubt i’m ever getting it back. 700 bux down the drain. emoeded.
well, gotta go shower and take my med. don’t know if i can fall asleep =/ i took a 4-hour plus long nap just now. i tried waking up 2 hours into the nap but, somehow i just konk-ed back to sleep. oh well. tatas.
皆さん！
一緒に 頑張ろう！
今日は学校に行かない。MC があるね！
明日は学校がある。T.T 私はとても疲れただ。今日はとても眠い － ピアノを弾く事がしないね。ちょっと悲しい。はは。
「シ」
じゃ、シャワーを浴びるきますね！ シ
tsk tsk tsk.
i really hate my school’s e-learning website. that’s where we (the students) are supposed to get our worksheets and whatnots. AND IT FREAKING ALWAYS DOESN’T WORK. it’s so effing irritating. it (the server or whatever) either pretends to be offline, or leaves me loopy by making me log in ten thousand times over and not giving me my .pdf file. bloody heck.
*grrr*
- Ludwig van Beethoven (1770, 16 December)
- Eric Jackson "Kaine" from Ying Yang Twins (1978, 16 December)
- Tramar Dillard "Flo Rida" (1979, 16 December)
(:
i am feeling strangely emotional today.
feel that live is just too fragile, too transient.
feel that jodi picoult writes books that totally, absolutely shatters my already fragmented heart.
feel that, life is so unfair – justice shouldn’t ever exist.
i am still thinking of star – my cousin’s dog which died a way too premature death. a horrendous death. it totally broke my heart; no matter how much i disliked it, i still felt so hard for its death. it’s just a dog, how can anyone hold such grudge against it – to kill it even. don’t tell me it’s an accident, the circumstances and the human mind totally dismisses that possibility. don’t tell me fear held back actions – there were so many other people who could help. it was such a huge dog. it almost weigh as much as a primary-going-to-secondary-school-kid. i can’t even fathom the pain it went through. rest in peace, star.
my heart – maybe it had been whole some time ago. but it had shattered to such tiny pieces that i found myself (not literally) sitting in the middle of the shards in denial, then in a daze – what do you do with such a badly broken heart? after some time i finally picked myself up and started piecing them together, with the support of a friend. i gained some confidence, learnt to let go a little. but that was not to be for long. the next blow came and my shattered glass sculpture was smashed into even smaller shards in front of my eyes. i really felt like giving up then. and i still do now. the lesson i learnt was to steer clear of the hammers that peppered my life like streetlights along the roads in Singapore.
anyway, i shall change the topic. i went to the audition for fb just now with regina and amelia. i think we totally screwed up. i can see my hope dissipating into the air. maybe i shall try some dances outside. means, i gotta pay. well, hope that some miracle works itself and i get into fb. heh. i really do dream too big, huh.
my cousin’s dog got hung by his maid. that effing ****ing cruel woman. my cousin had that dog for 8 years. needless to say, he and his wife were devastated. even though i don’t like the dog, but such cruelty… unforgivable. the maid hung the leash in the lift and left the dog outside. and the lift went up. the dog got hung there for 20 minutes, according to the CCTV footage. i was filled with rage when i heard that. how can anyone ever be so cruel??
anyway, i watched x-men 1,2,3 and origins over the past 3 days. wolverine rocks okay! anyway i think i had an overdose of x-men; keep thinking of it x.x
i found plenty of scores online last weekend. printed them yesterday and played all of them the first, second, third and forth times on the same day. (maybe more times :x) had my piano lesson today. my teacher said i improved, though i really need to work on the confidence in my playing. confidence – where do i really find it? it has always been lacking in my life. oh well, guess i got to practice more.
music – it has been an essential part of my life. i love music. playing, creating, listening – they all make me feel happy. more often than not, i have a melody running in my mind. yet, i’m improving at such a slow rate that i’m getting very impatient. i want results. more, more! (more practice, again. oh wells.)
i saw this game called anti-monopoly in popular on sunday. it’s interesting. and it cost $59.90. bugger. should i or should i not buy it?
realised i had been grousing a lot these few days. frankly speaking, i’m very irritated by the fact that people of our generation are often irresponsible. if you can’t make it on time, or at all, for a meeting or what, at least have the courtesy to inform whoever you’re meeting. but, apparently this doesn’t even occur to some people, at all. gah. makes me so mad.